the search for a chalice

the last goodbye

2006-08-09T12:58:00.000+08:00

anybody who goes clubbing wears a capital D on their signboards, and stamped right on the forehead "LOOK, I AM DESPERATE AND HORNY"
i find that such an irony when people tell me they go clubbing just to have their fair share of fun and dancing
OH I LIKE TO DANCE HIP HOP
AND I FORGET THAT YOU ARE A SMOKER

heh.
i dont like to be used as a opener
it sucked
because it's like putting me of the window and then throwing me frm 10 storeys
and i come crashing down like how squashed tofu looks like to you.

and now
FRANK SINATRA's on my playlist.
jazzy snazzy feel

the biggest secret

2006-08-05T10:45:00.000+08:00

act emo
but don't be emo
ever.

anderson's back in town
GET OUT OF HERE
yeah
my nigger's back and back for a month.
sheesh.

the boy and the tree

2006-07-15T13:32:00.000+08:00

the sacred possibility

why doubt me; why challenge the truth when the possibility of getting hurt?

tsktsk.
when you stamp "good friend" on this person,
you have given the chop of approval that he's a friend who at least understands you quite well (>50 percent?) .

but being myself, i am always find myself in awkward situations and it's hard to explain why am i feeling so weirdly in this party.
so don't probe
and don't yearn for any answer
because the more you ask
the more i find myself regretting to have you as my good friend.

i don't see why people should question their relationship (in terms of friendship) when we're in a fix.
because we're probably going downhill like the cork sugar tree going down.

on a brighter note,
i have to stay bubbly and cheerful and emo except pimply
for myself and my tree.

: )

Pink bullets; I dont think i stand a chance

2006-07-01T16:48:00.000+08:00

I think the whole idea of falling in love when you're attacted to one (be it looks or anything) becomes so clinched and even to the point that it becomes theaterical proof materials that i feel anything but supercilious about the whole idea of cuddling and loving.
Skeptical i have became, but i have learnt to differentiate what infactuation is from love after many ups and downs of a rollercoaster ride,
i've learnt that the truth that it's always safer not to love than to love.

Kisses are cheaper than you'd think

2006-06-17T20:52:00.000+08:00

Kisses are so cheap
when they plant it on your cheeks
and tell you they love you
for the night

seems too right to be true
i thought i was in love
for a moment or two

then
you realised it was all deja-vu
everything before me,
was unreal
as they always will be

so there i go
with my take away-home clubbing session with my new friends from the young famous and rich indo gang

are you guys true too?

Bonjour to you miss? Maybe not.

2006-06-14T23:49:00.000+08:00

BONJOUR TO ALL FRENCH ASSWIPS

: )
i am so mesmerized by the sleek football the spainards are playing
so much so that i think they have a chance to reach the semis
with TORRES !

and let's hope kevin gets his driving license so he can drive me in his mum's BMW and we can hog around town acting spoilt and rich and obnoxious
AND MAYBE WE CAN SHOUT

SPAIN SPAIN SPAIN!

and i am serious about forming a soccer gangz
must put a z to it behind
it shows the true fellowship of soccer fans
who will
shout
scream
dance wildly
and might just point the middle finger if you block our angle of view

and when i shouted today
it was like tsunami

1) my sister spilled her chinchow

2) my mum got a shock

3) my bro scolded me

4) my dad woke up from his sleep

AM I SUCH A KING KONG OR WHAT?
thats when total football gets into you i reckon.

so long for tomorrow.

The English Affair

2006-06-11T15:34:00.000+08:00

: ) and : (

that you understand i am not such a person.

on a brighter note,
i enjoy watching world cup matches with trueblue soccer who gives me high fives everytime;
i would have done a crouch dance if england scored another (tsk tsk)

maybe next week i would do a superman move
haha
struting my stuffs huh?

and wine flair is so banned from the list of places i would go
and i enjoy talking to ivy
she's quite funny like all pisces are funny people.

rugby people cannot touch their shoulders with their hands
HAHA

: )
whats a monk on a bike?

Girls and boys

2006-06-10T12:50:00.000+08:00

In my solemn opinion (and might probably sound a little tad ridiculous), God loves the innocent simple minded easily taken in and naive dumbass pea-brainer who cannot add 12+23+49+89

Don't you think so too?

and he's probably reading my mind
and answering my simplest request in life
: )
and he knows he has already put a smile on my face

I got a soul but i am no soldier

2006-06-09T18:53:00.000+08:00

Today i lost a friend.

Cameras; To Keep The Memories Alive

2006-06-04T01:37:00.000+08:00

NIKON COOLPIX S5 (BLUE)
Just bought this from the PC show at suntec city,
boy this better be the camera of the year,
i took so much pain and unrentless energy to push myself through the crowd from counter to counter
for enquiring on digital cameras.

Isn't it such a pretty thing?
As pretty as the mole on my face ; )

Coco Latte, China One, Coco Latte, China One; You Take Time To Choose The Best Deal

2006-06-03T23:41:00.000+08:00

Had an outing with my friends yesterday.
Initial plan was MOS,
then we change to Coco Latte as it was free of charge
(yes goddamn you cheapos who think we're cheapos because we believe in saving money for our booze and smokes)
Unfortunately with a captial U (to it), the place was damn empty with a few working adults who look old enough to be my uncle or auntie
So we laugh it off as a joke and went to MOS, planning to crash the night there
and as we went there,
we decided to crash Amanda Kee's party,
but somehow,
we met charmaine along the way,
the hottie with a singapore slang (andy's friend)
met up with us for a while

"why do you point the middle finger for?"

"joking lah, it was for andy"

(secretly i was thinking, yeah it was for you; i bet you like my finger)

then we went on to meet amanda
and she remembers me!
hahaha.
and she gave all of us a hug
so sweet of her i think, as if hugs were hellos and kisses were greetings
and then her guy friend behind her kept staring at us,
seems like he wasn't too happy about the gorgeous people stealing hugs and kisses from her.

and andy wanted to give him a trashing for staring
and arif was like "oh yeah"
and i was like "maybe i can call the 995?"
kevin just chuckles
and amanda probably thinks all of us are one crazy wacky bunch of people who thinks she's hot.
she's not my type lah.
but definitely an eye candy to many, i wouldn't bat an eyelid if she asks me out (haha, but unless it doesnt rain)

and i like ChinaOne
It's just soooooo chill out with the good pop music pumping out (i actually come to realisation that i enjoy pop music now; that seems a very long time ago already)
And the best part was 21 for guys and 18 for girls.
and they didn't check me.

Anyhow,
we went to brewerks later on,
and had finger food with good beeeeeeeeeeeer with many "e"s
i like the beer from brewerks
and swear that i will at least watch one world cup match there

life's not any bitter with beer and friends you make everyday;
friends do they believe that they form part of our subconscious inner being of every individual; that are like bits of a jigsaw puzzle that completes our life;
and a missing piece goes incomplete;
like how sometimes we feel a little empty inside and wonder why.

and before i go,
i made a horrible nightmare that my dick was 3cm long
and i was sobbing like a man robbed off his money and wife.

Indians are cool people; I love Indians : )

2006-05-29T20:06:00.000+08:00

I was doing guard duty with this sturdy bespectacled clean-shaven indian with "Prasha" on his uniform. So i address him as "PRA-SHA". And guess what? The correct way of pronouncing it was "PRASH" (you can somehow call him a brush and pull it off, like just i did jokingly).
Thankgod he was one of those happy-go-lucky type that doesn't mind indian racist jokes
haha, like how he made fun of his own race

"Setting up an Indian-European cafe in Little Indian proved to be alittle over-the-hill task because i don't want it to be filled with Indians (his kind)"

"But isn't it also an Indian Cafe?"

"Yeah. But i want the whole market."

"Okay, i see that taking off shoes in your cafe will attract more than just indians"

Enough said,
they're indeed cool people who takes off their shoes to be cool
(no pun intended)

What's lost was lost; like chasity, it can never be returned

2006-05-28T16:55:00.000+08:00

Had a bmtc gathering at cine before going off to lido to catch x-men3; which comprises of ian, kevin, arif, victor, micheal, chee yong (who i amazingly cannot pronounce his name everytime; and always i would call him chee hong instead; maybe thats why we all call him by his nick hardcore) and myself

XMEN3 was quite an awesome show for a comic-turned-movie; especially when they build the storyline such that it brings you to the edge and push you alittle and alittle from there until you almost fall off but not just yet. And thanks to arif's information, we stood patient and caught a snippet of the movie at the end that promises a part 4!
and another of arif's information, there's 7 parts in total.
sounds like we will have alot of X coming on.

And after the movie,
went to zouk
to be disappointed by house music
we went off to mos
and along the way
i lost my 1000 digital camera and a cantaburry tee; i actually manage to come to terms to it
that if it's meant to go,
let it go
similiarly,
i didn't really give a shit other than the fact that there pictures of myself and people in the camera; which isn't exactly all decent to the eyes

somehow
today i feel that life has just shortchanged me alittle.

The Nanny State; I Can Play Nanny Too

2006-05-27T12:45:00.000+08:00

27 may marks the first day i ever visited a polyclinic.
the initial thoughts that come to your mind when someone tells you he or she is visiting the polyclinic,
you're either
1. just broke because you can't find any clients
2. lowclass asshole with no health insurance covered
3. you're old blind and mute with a heart problem

unfortunately, i don't belong to any of the above mentioned category
for i think i deserve to make use of my parents' taxes to the government
and not to mention
i am working for the government now as a conscript national servicemen
whose life is worth a measely 25 thousand dollars if you happen not to make it alive back home
after 2 years of pricessless youth badly spent on the army

to think that singapore is encourgaging population growth and it in the perils of an ageing population
you didn't think that our lives could be given a price tag to them;
not to mention a cheap 25 thousand dollars price to it
and what is money when you're on your death bed?
money for the funeral proceedings?
money to pay off your loans?
how do you they even manage to coerce themselves into believing that a monetary compensation will ease or make better of the grivenaces the family are undergoing

for 25 thousand bucks,
i can go for some muscle implants on my chest and maybe go for some nose and jaw job...
well looks sell doesn't it
just like how sex does

and to laugh harder,
the efficicency of the army is something you can salute to with a middle finger by my temple

there's this motto in my camp
"fight till the death"

i'd like to change it to "laugh till the death"
so much for trying to promote birth rates.